Wednesday, December 2, 2020

Bless This Mess

 

The Christmas spirit hasn't moved me for several years. This box holds the only things that have seen the light of day for three years. 2018 was a rough one with one loss after another starting with Dad. Then 2019 came but only as a trigger for the holiday blues. To get over myself I tore out the kitchen for Christmas and we all know how that's going.



So you would think that fresh off the loss of my kitty buddy and the hell we are living through I'd be feeling like skipping it all again but no......sitting on my deck with my fire last week and seeing my woods ablaze with the holiday lights from the houses up on the hills gave me such a feeling of solidarity. I've lived here 30 years and I've never seen such a light display through the woods. It filled me with hope. 



It's as if we are sending the signal to each other in our isolation that life goes on no matter how terrible the circumstances. So...The Mister and I dug out all our lights and set our house ablaze as well. We've got lights front and back so the people through the woods and the folks up the driveway will know we are here and we are safe.



I drew the line with the tree. I can't put up a real tree in this holy mess I am living in so my little wooden one will have to do. 



As long as the Missing Nose Santa is up on his spot on the fridge all is well. We are home. We are safe. The rest doesn't really matter. 




10 comments:

  1. Yeah for decorating! I haven't started yet not sure how much I will do:)

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  2. I love your little wooden tree and the Santa too. I think a lot of people are decorating early and a LOT this year for just the reason you described. Lots of campers here at the park have lights up...including us. It lifts the spirits.
    I'm glad you feel like decorating this year. Hold on, a vaccine will be here soon.
    Blessings,
    Betsy

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  3. So glad to hear you feel like decorating! I'm sure it must be beautiful to see Christmas lights through the woods...and folks will certainly enjoy seeing yours as well. Be safe!

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  4. Love it! I've been debating on decorating this year. I probably will but I have to get some motivation.

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  5. We can all use some Hope right now. I haven’t decorated yet - maybe this weekend, but I will definitely add some cheer and lights to my apartment.

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  6. I completely understand the feelings that you've expressed - sometimes when I don't want to do something I really have to force myself and, eventually, my heart and mind will change. I haven't decorated but as soon as I post this I will set up the Santa with the Christmas countdown blocks - One of the grandsons mentioned it in a video call so I have to do it just because he remembered.

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  7. What a beautiful post Deb. I am so happy that you and those in your neighborhood found a way to bring light to a dark time. I love no nose Santa

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  8. What a great sentiment! Good for you! I hope it lights a fire under me!

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  9. I love noseless Santa! LOL We have Evil Rudolph and Satan Snowman. They are ceramic figurines that my mom painted and the eyes are just... pure evil. But I love them anyway and always display them. There must be something in the covid air... I decorated our tree this year and enjoyed it for the first time since my mom died 15 years ago. She died on Christmas morning and this is the first year that I haven't felt weird about Christmas. I still miss both my parents but I'm so glad to apparently be over the mourning hump. Wishing you happy holidays!

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  10. My grandmother died on Christmas morning also so I know how that goes. It was years before I could associate Christmas with anything other than funerals and funeral parlors. It was a white Christmas too.

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