Monday, September 23, 2013
Farewell, My Lovely
Nine months ago they said she hadn't much time left. Since then her wish was my command and it hasn't been easy juggling real life while providing round the clock hospice care. I haven't slept more than two hours at a time since I can remember. The care for her heart condition was overwhelmingly complex and exhausting but I don't regret a single minute. I would gladly endure years more as long as she remained happy and comfortable which she wasn't on her last long, painful night.
But life goes on.......I am going to try and find some peace by imagining her on Mom's lap surrounded by all the furry and feathered family members that went before. I am not completely sure about this heaven thing but I really hope I get to see all them again some day.
In the meantime I am going to be doing a lot of walking in the woods with my good friend Josh.
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
I wrote this post in real time but for the next week or so, in anticipation of the worst, I pre-wrote and pre-posted many now silly sounding posts on the things I had been doing while pretty much house bound during my girl's final weeks. I'll be back in real time as soon as I find my way out of this black hole.
Thank you in advance for your condolences and kind words. I know for most of you this is a "been there, done that" subject. Your posts on the loss of your beloved pets have been such a comfort to me that I decided to go ahead and share my misery in hopes of being a comfort to someone else. If you haven't seen this one, make sure you grab some tissues first.
Give your fur babies a big hug and kiss for me tonight. Their lives are much too short for having so much to give.