It seems 2020 is not done with me yet. Yesterday I had to say goodbye to Hoover.
The day started like any other. He had his customary second breakfast and seemed fine.
He had been going downhill rapidly lately but I was very happy to see he was up on the kitty table waiting for me when I got up. By afternoon things took a terrible turn. I could tell he was agitated. His breathing was off. By late afternoon he was in full pant and coughing up fluid. What followed was a desperate ride to the emergency vet clinic all the way in Annapolis. It didn't look good. He was in heart failure. It was time to let go.
Earning your kitty wings in the time of Covid is hard. You can't be with them. They bring them outside to a little tent for you to say goodbye and they are wide awake and begging to go home. Those kitty paws digging at me pleading to take him in my arms and leave with him will haunt me forever. Walking away from him was terrible. Terrible. I'm broken. So broken.
I have a lot of cats but Hoover was MY kitty because I was HIS. He loved me like a dog loves someone. He followed me around all day long. I didn't know him long. He showed up on the deck in 2015 and adopted me. He was an old cat then and only got so much older but of all the cats I've ever had he was the ONE and I will miss him terribly.
Rest in peace my sweet boy. It was so hard to let you go.
Death in the time of Covid stinks.
I said I was broken and I am.
I am taking a blog break until December 1st.
No one needs to hear the things I feel like writing at the moment.
Stay safe.
Stay home.
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Oh Debbie, I'm so very sorry. It's hard enough when you can be with them till the end and it's just plain awful when you can't. I am just so sorry. This year just gets worse and worse doesn't it? I'm tired.
ReplyDeleteTake the time you need and we'll be right here when you're ready to come back. You can write to me privately any time you want to. I care my friend. I'll be praying for you and the Mister too.
Blessings and love,
Betsy
I’m so sorry about your kitty. I’ve read your blog from beginning to now and you take such good care of your animal friends! I’ll miss your daily posts and look forward to your return. Until then, be well. 😽
ReplyDeleteDebbie I’m so sorry to hear your kitty news. I know exactly how you feel. I still miss my Rosie. And this year (the year from hell) we lost our much loved grand dog Bean. He spent his summers with me at the cottage. That alone made the summer very different.
ReplyDeleteI am not happy to hear you are not going to blog for two weeks. I look forward to hearing from you every day. I miss so much this year now this. Oh my. Please reconsider. Take a few days but not two weeks. Yes I’m being selfish. Of course take what you need. I feel your pain.
Already missing you
Cheryl (aka seajaes)
Oh no. I am so sorry. Take all the time you need. Sending hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to know that you are hurting so badly. Take care of yourself; you are wise to stop and allow some time to pass. You'll be missed as I sip my morning coffee but my prayer is with you and your family. Be well.
ReplyDeleteSo much loss for you lately, I'm so sorry. Know we are sending you love.
ReplyDeleteI’m so sorry about your sweet Hoover. Our constant companions, so full of unconditional love.
ReplyDeleteI had to say goodbye to my 17 year old cat a couple weeks ago and as you say, Covid precautions make a sad and difficult situation even worse.
Keeping you in my thoughts.
Take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences. Sorry to hear of Hoover's passing.
ReplyDeleteI'm all choked up.
Will miss you, looking forward to hearing from you whenever you are ready.
Stay safe.
I am so sorry for your loss. I had to put down my 19 year old cat who loved me dearly and I her but it was not during Covid. My heart is with you. Stay safe. We will miss you. Until December.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. This year has been horrible and this just makes it so much worse. Sending you lots of love as you move through this loss.
ReplyDeleteSo sad to hear about Hoover. It is just heartbreaking when a pet passes away. Will be saying a prayer for you as you deal with your grief. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so so very sorry . Val and you both lost beloved cats /family this week. It is a grief like no other. Big hugs to you. Take the time you need. We are here anytime
ReplyDeleteSo sad for you, losing a special pet is so very hard. Be kind to yourself:(
ReplyDeleteI am SO sorry about the loss of Hoover. I know what you mean; Kola is MY kitty. She's young now, but someday I'll have to say goodbye to her and it will be terrible!
ReplyDeleteI'm also sorry you couldn't be with her. IN Madison, the only time people go into the vet clinic is when an animal needs to be put down.
Oh I am so so terribly sorry. I am just so glad that you two had each other for as long as you did. Take care, and God bless your angel boy. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you lost your little Hoover. That just sounds so hard--it is hard enough to take them to the vet and not be able to be with them and I can't comprehend not being able to be there to say goodbye. Stella and Oliver and Wendy will be welcoming him and will show him the ropes. xo
ReplyDeleteOh - I'm so sorry. I know just how you feel. And not because we just lost Peno, but I had the same connection with Tux that you had with Hoover. There are some that are just soulmates. There's no other way to describe it. They leave a huge hole behind. We are better for their company in our lives, though it doesn't really feel like that now - but we are. Sending a great big virtual hug!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this. My heart hurts for you. I will miss your daily posts but take as long as you need to grieve.
ReplyDeleteHugs dear one. Take care.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Deb. I felt like that when I realized that Mister had disappeared and was never coming back. He found me at my old job and I brought him home, thinking he was a she. I loved his catitude and he loved to stretch out on my lap and sleep. I always worried about him when I let him out and sometimes he didn't come home for a few days but never more than 5. That last time was awful. After a week I knew I would not see him again. I miss him to this day. Huge hugs.
ReplyDeleteI am always hear to listen. I mean it.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry .
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry for your loss. It's so hard to lose a fur baby and some are more special than others. Take all the time you need, we will be here when you return. Take care & stay safe!
ReplyDeleteOh, I am SO, SO sorry. Hugs to you and you are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThis post tore me up. So sorry for you. I had to say goodbye to two aging dogs last Fall and Winter 2019. Before Covid. I can't imagine what it's like now. Again, so sorry for your loss.
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